it's only everything

how to apologize
to the air
that I breathe
for the fear of loss
that costs
everything
when this grip
that grasps
forever
is so suffocating
when your ears
have grown tired
of these
sad songs I sing

see, panic
and I have spent
so much time
alone
that fright forms
my features
etched its shape
in my bones
and while
I long to make
my heart your home
all flaws
in design are
completely my own

I'm awkward
I'm anxious
but I'm also
all yours
for the rest
of the years
my dust circles
this earth
and though I know
to you it must
seem quite absurd
I hope to rebuild
on the strength
of these words

said
I love you
(I'll always
love you)
yes
I love you
(I'll always
love you)